Stress is a big factor in many lives. One of my best friends goes through a little stress and it has crazy effects on her body. My stress may seem small but it mainly comes from my family. I have had two miscarriages and many many failed relationships. One of my ex boyfriends is wanting me to commit suicide and is going to great lengths to try to make me without getting my blood on his hands. He even had the guts to tell my boyfriend that I'm cheating on him when I'm not and he even told my best friend that I'm a slut that needs to disappear. My ex and I share one of the same best friends. I am under plenty of stress from my family too. My dad on memorial day (even though he did invite me out for a barbecue) didn't hardly say a word to me and it's been that way since him and my mom divorced. My brother and sister didn't even look at me that day and my dad's girlfriends kids tried to treat me like shit. My mom talks to me about all her problems and I think that's my safe haven because I get the chance to worry about some one else's life and push my problems to the back of my mind to bottle up. This blog is my relief and it helps me a lot and the fact that no one in my family knows about it and that none of them call me Genie really helps for me to fully vent my problems here. It's either this or I play call of duty black ops 2 to get my anger completely out of my system.
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